“ If you want to kill yourself, kill what you don’t like. I had an old self that I killed. You can kill yourself too, but that doesn’t mean you got to stop living. ”
Winona Ryder - Interview by Craig McDean, May 2013
mind blown! heart ache! soul tired!
need outlet/s to fill this dark hole that is my love life.
resorting to pretty much everything to take my mind off it.
intensely discouraging self from hopping onto the next guy/s.
extremely and intensely discouraging self from cry-calling the ex asking what this all means for us.
feels pretty much doomed at this point.
getting used to only having myself for company now.
hello. i remember you.
i think this is what it feels like to break your own heart. i know i asked for this but i don’t know if it’s the right thing. probably the right thing for him.. i clearly don’t know what i want in life.
also grandma not doing well at all.
tonight is probably the worst night of 2013 for me. this is.. fucking shit.
i want to cry but i don’t know for what.
“ As I see it, you are living with something that you keep hidden deep inside. Something heavy. I felt it from the first time I met you. You have a strong gaze, as if you have made up your mind about something. To tell you the truth, I myself carry such things around inside. Heavy things. That is how I can see it in you. ”
Haruki Murakami (1Q84)